On love and happiness x


With a new year comes new adventures, tragedies, bad times and good.



January of last year I had began to let someone new slowly come into my life. With such a dramatic, amazing, scary, spotlight of an experience of my past relationship. It came a lot harder for me to let this one even start. The last time I didn't see it coming. I jumped in head first without having any idea how to swim. It was scary, amazing, eye opening and life changing. I was unaware of my surroundings but didn't know any better or frankly didn't care. I was in love. Some of the most amazing and horrid episodes of my life were in those few years. I became much more wise as I had lived through the aftermath of it all crashing down. I began to recognize sincerity, love, and most of all, self respect and happiness. After a year of being on my own, I never felt better about myself and what was going for me. I traveled Europe, I did a shoot in Paris, I hosted my very first workshop and shot at New York Fashion week, I met new people, I drank too much, I made mistakes and I learned. I learned so much about myself that I couldn't believe that I was missing out on this much before. I was free. I was a bit of a happy hurricane that was taking me wherever the wind blew. I was loving my job more than ever, realizing that when I'm focused on myself, the possibilities are more than I could ever imagine. I felt more independent than I had ever felt before. Being 20 years old, and figuring this out, I felt on top of the world.

So, the more wise, "new me" could recognize a disaster from a far. I wasn't about to slip into something that I didn't want to, not this time. Without diving in and becoming naive to my surroundings, I held back. A lot. I thought, if I'm so happy right now, doing what I love, with the closest knit family and the most amazing friends, why the heck would I let someone come in and take over?? It seemed dumb to me to even consider that. I was happy alone so what more did I want? After much resistance I began to dip my toes in and slowly give someone a chance. I was timid and still unconvinced. I was fully aware and in control of what I was taking on. So sure not to be blinded. This time it was about me and I wasn't about to compromise. Why should anyone?



Over a few months, I was still focusing on myself but letting someone else fall in to place as well. We grew into a strong relationship built on trust and friendship. I was so cautious of not neglecting the happiness and goals that I had already set for myself, but I became open to putting energy into someone else too. I kept a level balance of career, friends, school and love. I got lucky. He was amazing. He was there for selfless advice and constant encouragement. He made sure I was inspired to aim higher and keeping the momentum going. He made me laugh, he loved adventure and he loved me when I was nearly impossible to love. He became my best friend. Nothing worth having comes easy. We had some amazing times and some not so amazing times, like anything. But one thing I stuck with was the saying that "Everything is temporary" good or bad. Now as I look back, it was a perfect example of what we had. He was temporary. We were temporary.



I don't regret a thing that happened in that short chapter but it taught me something so valuable, something I couldn't have learned on my own. It taught me that it's possible to be happy alone, but it's also possible to be just as happy with someone else. That was totally new to me. The difference was this time he wasn't my happiness, he wasn't holding me back, he was along for my adventure. My carefree living didn't stop with him, he simply joined.
 As I learned self respect, I learned what to compromise and what not to compromise. I strongly believe in walking away from things that no longer serve us. So I had to walk away. I think the world of him and couldn't have chose a better way to teach me those things.
Here's to being in love. And here's to being alone.

And a happy, carefree New Year with endless adventure and happiness.





xx








Transition time in the maritimes


I hope everyone had a fantastic summer!! Mine was a little more relaxed than the past few have been, but none the less, traveled to incredible places, met amazing new clients and spent time with the ones I love. What more do you want.






So, I've been trying to make a blog post for almost a month now and I just couldn't figure out how to get what I wanted to get across. So I just started writing. Does anyone else get a weird feeling when they're entering "back to school" mode? Even if you're not returning to school, there's a sudden rush in the air everywhere and it's impossible to escape. It's like September 1st symbolizes the beginning for all things new. New classes, cities, friends, problems... September has always been a tough one for me, for the past few years most of my bigger issues fell into September. 

Here's my theory:
September is a transition period.
Transition periods
Transition periods are some of the toughest times you'll beer go through. I can compare them to when you're riding your bike when you're little and you're trying to catch up with your friends. So you gear up from 2nd gear to 5th. Once you turn that little dial, you need to push and ride it out until your bike stops making unhealthy noises and it's caught up. < That could be a bad example but that's how I picture it. 
It's the painful time that you need to get through to get where you're going. Most often in between the ending of something (summer break) and entering (the unknown) (school) Sometimes the transition period lasts longer than expected and it's overwhelming. Like the next big thing just isn't coming. And sometimes there's no break at all, bang bang, and you didn't even have time to think or worry about it. I prefer the bang bang series. I know that September isn't the only time for this, it happens all the time really, sometimes more abrupt than others.



So, as I'm starting to get over mine, my advise (and what I keep telling myself this whole month) is to take a step back and try to see the bigger picture.

Steve Jobs says it best, 

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it leads you off the well worn path; and that will make all the difference.”

So chin up and here's to new year, new city new school, new clients & new friends. 
Happy back to school to you xx














Barcelona, Spain




 Another chapter in my Europe trip was 6 days in Barcelona. It was absolutely beauuuuutiful. It was such a relaxed city and everyone was so kind. Our friends Andrew & Pat met us in Barca and made it so much more fun, and we didn't even know that was possible. 

 We spent a lot of time lost, and a lot of time at the beach. Also, Barca has the BEST sea glass in case you're wondering. Oh and very cheap wine. 



































































































































































































































Paris





A couple months ago I travelled Europe. While I was in Paris, France, I set up a shoot with CITY Models. I got set up with a gorgeous model named Ines. We headed down to la tour eiffel and got some shots. 
My travel partner & best friend Caroline took some video of the shoot, here's the link to that, as well as the final shots.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvDgLAs5mD8








It was a dream in itself being in Paris, so setting up a fashion shoot while I was there was unbelievable.
I absolutely never ever ever thought that at 20 years old that I would organize something like this all alone and then actually set out and do it. 
I've heard a lot of people talk about how they could never do something like this, and my question is always "Why?" Because you already decided that you couldn't, that's why. I remember people thinking I was crazy when I would tell them my career path and what I wanted to do with my life. Questions like competition, not enough money, "tough field to be in" were always reoccurring. If you know what you want, stop making excuses and start making things happen. I have never taken "no" as an answer, and I always challenge boundaries. So far, it's worked perfectly.



Never abandon your dreams just because someone living their nightmare told you so.




enjoy 




















xx

Allie

My first workshop !!




I had the most amazing time hosting my first photography workshop. It's something that I've been talking about doing for over 2 years now and finally put aside the time to get done. After many hours of planning, finding ideas, shopping for dresses, brainstorming, calling around, seeking feedback, purchasing birds, mortifying my boyfriend while pulling out a life size mermaid tail in public, ..you know, all the normal things other people do for their job, I couldn't be more happy with the turnout.





So before shooting there was some prep time.
Introducing our talented behind the scenes team!


Hair: Shelley Hennesey
Makeup: Brittany Campbell
Models: Taryn Fitzpatrick, Olivia Laidlaw

Also, a big shout out & thank you to Exchange on Germain with providing gorgeous styling and amazing dresses for us to use. Some great girls in there and so very helpful!
The dresses that we used are available for purchase in store!




Everyone did an amazing job












After hair & makeup, we headed down to the location. Lucky for us, Arthur didn't ruin our time. The weather was sunny, foggy & misty all at the same time. It really put a test to adjusting our camera settings ;)


All these awesome BTS photos were taken by: Marianne Beckwith
thank you!!!


































I was really happy to be able to teach some of my experience in fashion, beauty and also conceptual. I taught the group how to "think ahead" while shooting conceptual images. Planning the scene before hand and taking the shots you need to have in all piece together in Photoshop afterwards.


















How cute are they !!!!






























Day 2 was spent at UNBSJ reviewing images, talking changes, editing, retouching process and a little bit about my story. My experiences and how I got to some of the points where I am today.

I was SO happy seeing what the girls came up with in their shots. It is something really cool giving everyone the same tools to work with and then seeing how different the results are.

It made me really excited that I could make that happen for them and now I totally understand why teachers love their job. It was unbelievably rewarding.





















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These are some of my final shots from Friday











Model: Olivia Laidlaw
Hair: Shelley Hennesey
Makeup: Brittany Campbell














Model: Taryn Fitzpatrick
Hair: Shelley Hennesey
Makeup: Brittany Campbell
Styling: Exchange on Germain
Dress: Diane von Furtsenberg











Model: Taryn Fitzpatrick
Hair: Shelley Hennesey
Makeup: Brittany Campbell








Model: Olivia Laidlaw
Hair: Shelley Hennesey
Makeup: Brittany Campbell
Dress: Diane von Furtsenberg Wrap dress


Secret. There was only 1 bird we were working with .......  








Model: Taryn Fitzpatrick
Hair: Shelley Hennesey
Makeup: Brittany Campbell













Amazing time with some incredible people with even more insanely beautiful shots!
I will be hosting another workshop at the end of August if there is enough interest so send me an email and let me know if you or someone you know is interested!! allie.beckwith@gmail.com



& check out #allieworkshop on Instagram & Facebook to see some results from some other shooters! 



Here is some feedback from the experience of the participants!



What was your favourite part?Favourite: shooting the girls, loved trying different settings on camera, different angles, etc. working with real models was awesome. Totally addictive. If I was young and could start over, I think I'd peruse a career I photography. What is the biggest thing you learned while reviewing/retouching?How useful the clone tool is ! Would you reccommend a future workshop to others? Why?Yes because it was a great experience and the photos turned out amazing which is good to add to your portfolio, and I learned a lot ! On a scale of 1-10 how would you rate your over all experience?TEN! 

So easy even I can do it

Ok guys, I know I haven't blogged Barcelona or Switzerland but I promise you it's on my to do list. I've been crazy busy and doing so many summer activities. Tough life, I know. 

So yesterday I went on a mad hunt for a reflector. Impossible mission in Saint John seeing how now we don't even have a Black's Photo store anymore (or anything else of the sort). So I made my own. It works amazing and it costed me a big $14 for 2 reflectors! Annnnnd so easy I even did it, which says a lot. 


All you need is: 
Foam core --I got mine at Michael's Craft store, 20x30" $3.99 each
Reflective wrapping paper --Found this at WalMart by the greeting cards 
Tape
Scissors 




Cut the paper the size of the foam core, line it up and tape the edges. 
THATS IT




Now you have a softer reflector, the white side, and a stronger reflector the shiny side. I made two but it depends on your technique! 

Here are some with/without reflector shots I tested out. 






Without 


With



Poof!! Under eyes brightened! ^ This was using the white side 









Paris, mon amour x


Ahhhhhhh :) Hello!!! I can't even believe how big of a whirlwind May has been for me. Between finals, packing, moving, unpacking, working, packing again, 10 flights, 7 airports, 8 trains, 2 taxis, 7 busses, 5 trams, 10000+ metros, I made it!! I got the most amazing experience going to see my best friend Caroline who's currently living in Schenkon, Switzerland. We did not stop laughing from the moment we saw each other at the train station in Luzern (I was standing at the wrong meet spot), from my train ride back as she was running after the train in bare feet. Hahah the BEST travel companion in the world.



We started in Switzerland, made our way to Paris, France, Barcelona, Spain, then back to Switzerland. I was lucky enough to have an experience shooting with a professional model for a fashion shoot while I was here in Paris, which I will be blogging about soon! It is to dieeee for. So stay tuned for that.





Needless to say we were the two most chipper people at this train station. Good morning!!!!!!!













This was our view from the Eiffel tower. I'd be lying if I told you this is from the top. So here's the thing, we loved the idea of going to the top... Until we got to the first landing and decided that being smothered with 200 other people, we had a nice view and we were ready to go down ;)














 You know when you see photos of something all the time, then there's that "Ah-ha" moment of seeing it in real life? I have a photo of Paris in my room that I stare at every day, and it was taken from this exact angle with this bridge in the left corner. That was super exciting to me;)




































The Love Lock bridge. Okay so I know if Caroline was writing this she would tell you this so here it is, one of my many blonde moments of our adventure:

Lady: Hi do you guys want this lock??
Allie: Aww, thats sweet of you, but do you have one for yourself??
Lady: 2 Euro please

ahh shit .


















































































I think it's needless to say that Paris was an absolute dream. And I believe if you work hard enough, do your best, challenge yourself every day, take chances and put out good energy, the world sees that, and gives it back to you in all kinds of ways. This was one of mine. 






A complete rainbow over the Eiffel Tower during a torrential downpour. Caroline and I, the only two in sight that did not run for cover, and danced instead.


 Stay tuned for a post on Barcelona xx


x
Allie













Chris Nicholls




Fashion, Celebrities, Beauty, Commercial, you name it, this guy's shot it. I reached out to fashion/commercial photographer Chris Nicholls from Toronto, Ontario. Shooting with the biggest names in fashion, I just needed to know his secrets. Someone with over 20 years in the industry, this humble Canadian knows all the ins and outs from who to work with, to some tips on getting started, to an inside scoop on what it's like to work with some of the most controversial stars of today. 

Last week I gave Chris a call and got a very in-depth view on his opinions, techniques and some of his past that lead to where he is today. 





Hey Chris, tell me about yourself?
I'm a commercial/fashion photographer in Toronto Ontario. I've been in the business for many years and hopefully many more.

How old are you?
Ahh.. really?? You have to ask that? (laughs) I'm 53



I know instructed a couple workshops at the New Brunswick College of Craft & Design in Fredericton, New Brunswick. Tell us about your experience there
I was invited as a guest lecturer, Peter Gross is the person who stayed in touch with me and arranged for me to come down and speak, and we all went out to diner, and he also invited me down a second time.


Take us inside of your camera bag…
I use a Canon, I don't believe it matters what type of camera you use in particular..
I use a 50mm lens and an 85mm
I don't use zoom lenses usually, its just what I've grown accustomed to, I mean I sort of believe that there is a discipline of using a fixed lens that forces you keep moving around your subject instead of zooming in, and not thinking of your focal length.

Which editing software do you use? 
Capture.

I know you're pretty recognized for your lighting techniques, and studio work, which lighting/weather conditions are ideal to you?
I don't have a preference really, I do a lot of work outside with natural light as well. We're Canadian so we're forced into the studio a lot. Clients require predictable results and studio can give you very predictable results. You have to present a series of photos, they all have to be consistent. Say you're doing a series of 10 images of a garment, or a person or whatever, light changes throughout the day, you want them to look like a series, so studio does that. You can really own it, and make it exactly what you want it to be. More like a safety net in a way.

Do you prefer outdoor locations or studio work?
When you're shooting outside it's very observational based, but when you're in the studio, it's very constructive, you construct what you want, then work within. It's just a different way of thinking. Location photography sometimes people can become overwhelmed, the excitement of being somewhere new; everyones on the beach, excited to be there, but it's not ideal for the lighting, where the sun and wind are facing. I don't have a favorite, my retoucher is always commenting on what I do and she always says "oh you're so good in natural light" now I take offense to that (laughs) I'm like "oh well, what's wrong with...." but I think maybe she prefers to retouch natural light. It's hard to want to be in the studio, Would you rather be in the studio, or would you rather be in Hawaii? Or would you rather be in the studio or be in Ottawa??? You know .. In the winter you'd rather be in the studio.


Do you remember the photo you took when you realized that you could pursue photography as a career?
Yes. I mean, yes and no... I mean everyone thinks, like, when you do a drawing, "I could be an artist" but then the more you study art and the more you realize "oh this is really hard." I think you go through ways of thinking. I think every photographer has become a photographer because someone has said, "You're really good at taking pictures" and to be honest it was probably your parents or a friend or something. And you're like "oh I guess I am... I guess that's what I'll do" And almost every photographer has a story like that. Not very many people take photographs and don't share them with anyone and then still think they're really good photographers.. It's sort of about that process of showing and sharing and showing off. So when you start off you're like "Oh I'm good at this, I'll study this" I think there's a realization later on , the more you know about it, the more you realize that you're not good enough. So there's this other realization that, "Oh I thought I was good, but look how good all these other people are" You know, I'm not as good as them and thats why they're working and I'm not. And then there's a gradual confidence building process when you put trust in a situation where you have to take photos for money, and it works. From my point of view, I still doubt myself in certain situations, I'm thinking like, "Why me? I don't know what I'm doing" Even 30 years later I still think that. Then you take a step back and think about what you're doing.
When I was about 28, I was $75,000 in dept and none of that was student loan or anything, that was my business debt. It wasn't camera equipment I bought, it was accumulated debt from trying to invest in my business. I knew I was going to be able to pay that off, but I got very discouraged, for about a year I stopped taking photographs at all, and just tried to pay back my depts.
I would say being out of college, about 6 or 7 years after graduated I realized I was going to bounce back the other way. I'm a slow learner.




That's great news for me... I'm 20 right now and feel the pressure to be out doing things and succeeding. So you being 28 and just kind of getting your feet on the ground gives me hope!!
I mean it sounds to me that you're way ahead of what I was at 20 years old. You are already way ahead of me and in the way that you already know what you want to do, and you spent some time in New York and you've travelled a bit more, you know. You've seen professional photographers working. When I was 20 I was still in college. You have to be patient, I would look at it like a slow slope that will slowly rise. You have to constantly invest in it but it will always grow. Providing you're making the right decisions, creative decisions. It's helpful to think every photograph you take like a building block, no one can take away from you. It's not going to happen quickly, it's not American Idol (laughs) You're not going to get discovered, you know. Even if you photograph Miley Cyrus, tomorrow. It's not going to instantly transform you into work for the next month, it's just not. People tend to think, 'I just need that little niche..' 'Wheres that magic door I just can't find?' I think it's just a mistake to think that way. Every job I've had, right from the very beginning until now was a logical progression from the previous job I was doing, it was a slight step. People aren't going to see the picture you took of your neighbor and say, "Wow that's an awesome photo, will you shoot Rihanna's next cover???" It's just never going to happen like that. You just get back on the steps and slowly rise and is sped up by good photography. Be patient, you're only 20. You have lots of time. In fact it's better if it takes a long time because it's always getting better, if you peak too early then you're like "oh, now what?"



Do you remember your first cover? How old were you? 
My first cover if I have to be honest with myself was for an event baptist church magazine, it was of someone praying. My father was a graphic designer and he had lots of church clients and needed photos. Or maybe NOW Magazine, it's Toronto's free magazine, local theater people and sometimes celebrities. I was in my 20s.

I know you’ve worked with some big names in your career, what’s it like being on set with sometimes, big personalities of the celebrity world? 
It's harder working with celebrities. It's easier working with a model because a model is a model and their job is to have their picture taken. It's what they're good at. When you point a camera at them they know what to do, it's what they do. People have this mistaken assumption that models have this big ego, and for the most part they don't. They just like getting their picture taken and they're good at it, and they keep getting work and it's fairly easy work for them and they're happy to get paid for it.
Celebrities, it's not what they're best at. They're best at what they do; singer, actor, whatever. Even an actor is best at acting, not getting in front of a camera and being themselves. Celebrities come in, providing you get some pictures, they'd rather leave after that point. They'd usually want to shoot the cover first and then after that they're really not interested in sticking around for the most part. So it's a bit of a game to convince them that the pictures are really good and that it's going to be a lot of space in the magazine. They usually see that as not being so important, the cover is the main thing. So it's a bit of a dance to keep them there.
A lot of people say "oh when you shoot this person you should do this, you should tell them to do this" and I'm like, 'ohhh, no I'm not going to tell them anything' Im going to be the nicest person I possibly can to them because I want them to stick around. And so often they don't. They arrive late and they leave early, it's the truth of it.

Tell us about your shoot with Miley Cyrus for the November issue of Fashion magazine? What’s she like to work with and styling, concept, location, etc 
She was very professional, she was a lot of fun, she showed up on time, which is unusual. She didn't rush away either, she brought a lot of people with her, we photographed in a model's house. We photographed this male model in Toronto for a few days and he had a beautifully renovated house in Hollywood and I had asked him, "Would you ever allow a photo shoot there and he said, Sure just contact me!" So I reached out to him for that and he was excited to have Miley drop in. It was right around the time of her VMA controversy, it was only a few days after. 




The styling, obviously we wanted her to look sexy, there were multiple comments in the press that we took such beautiful pictures of her with clothes on because there were so many pictures of her circulating semi naked or whatever at the time. Which she would have probably done for us as well, but it was a fashion magazine and the point was to put great clothes on her. I think it got a very positive response, from her as well. We were trying to raise her status in the fashion world. There were a bunch of fashion designers that wouldn't lend us clothing because it was her. You would think that they'd be like "Oh it's Miley, of course we'll lend her whatever" but there were some designers that she even cited as being her favorite that wouldn't lend us clothes. 
We just shot Lorde, she's on the current cover, and all the designers fell over themselves to dress her. I mean it might be different now, but Miley just seemed a little volatile at the time, people weren't really sure which way she was going. I think she'll be fine, I think she's just having a lot of fun. I took her passport picture for her (laughs)



Is Taylor Swift as sweet as everyone says she is?? 
She is, super sweet, super nice. Just the nicest girl. really genuine, so friendly to everyone on set. It's like she didn't know she was a star.




Katie Perry?
Katie Perry wasn't in a very good mood when we photographed her, I'm sure she's probably a nice person, just having a bad day.





Demi??
Demi Levato was very guarded...



Miley really wasn't, she wears it all on the outside. I think she really is that person. She has a lot of fun I don't think it's at anybody's expense, she's doing what every 20 year old girl likes to do.


Are you represented by an agent/agency?
I am in the states, I have an agent in LA.
What are some pros and cons of being a freelance photographer and being represented?
I've never got a job from my agent. I had 2 agents prior to that and I've never gotten a job from them. Agents aren't interested until they think they can make money from you. The reality is your work gets you your job, not your agent. Mostly it's when the photographers get really busy then they can't handle the business end of it. They are artists, not business people. Most photographers aren't good with their money. Agents are able to ask for more money without feeling guilty for it.



How important is taking time for personal work? 
If I'm going to be honest I would say not at all. I don't do personal work. All the time I spend behind a camera is work, or leading to work. I'm not an artist, I'm a commercial photographer. Other photographers would give you the complete opposite answer.
How important is social media when it comes to your career? How can it help/hurt you? 
I do have an Instagram account: @chrisnichollsphotography. It's not important to me at all. I do have a Facebook account which my studio manager maintains halfheartedly. I've never been on it. I don't know how Facebook works. I've never been on Facebook. So, I know how Instagram works, well sort of anyway. Sometimes that can be fun, I've heard that sometimes photographers get work from that. But I think they have to have a really strong portfolio and a lot of existing clients to begin with, it's another place you can put your work and it can potentially be seen. I can tell you I've never once got a job from social media.

Any advise you would give to young photographers that are trying to break in to the industry? 
I mean I think the good news is, that if you take great photographs people will notice. Provided you put it in front of the people. You need to reach out and approach them. I think the rest of it is sort of peripheral, you just have to create amazing photographs. If people aren't hiring you or people aren't as interested as you think they should be, then you are fooling yourself that those photographs are good. People should fall over themselves when they see your photographs. "Oh my god, they're amazing I have to show them to everyone I know because they're so great" You have to take these pictures and show them. If you're not getting a response like that then they're not good enough. It's as easy as that. If you want to be a successful singer, write a successful song and get it played on the radio. You could be an instant success. Say, if you wrote "Royals" and you recorded it and took it over to your local radio station, it wouldn't matter if anyone ever heard of you at all, you would be instantly successful. Music is a bit more viral then imagery, I think. It's as simple as that, you just have to get out there and just keep working at it. Just keep working so much, all the time, just never look back and always look forward. "What do I need to do next?" and be honest with yourself and how good your photos actually are, and how they compare.
You're only 20, you've got lots of time. If you know thats what you want, then start heading in that direction, and going as direct as you can. Going to New York and seeing other photographers work, but also be selective to who you work for because whoever you work for will shape you as well. The best thing you can do is in dear yourself to someone.

Where can we follow you? Facebook/twitter/instagram etc


All photos: www.chrisnichollsphotography.com & instagram.com/chrisnhicollsphotography