So far this year, I thankfully have had a lot of time to myself, to think, to grieve, to prepare. To think really hard about my life, my business and what I want to make of all of this, all of these projects, and this whole thing. It's been pretty frustrating internally to not have a clear vision, clear goals, clear style, -clarity in general. I really did think I would have most of this figured out if you had asked my 18 year old self about my future. While I'm sure it may look like everything's figured out from the outside, or on Instagram, but my brain would highly disagree. Lol. I think we put a lot of pressure on ourselves to have it all figured out in our 20s, and I'm 100% one of those people. I understand it's a journey, but my god I'm impatient lol.  I'm going to share some thoughts about recent works, concepts and ideas behind some of my recent works. For you, but for me too. 

If you've been reading my blog for a few years, you'll probably have an idea of my style of photography. I really love shooting seascapes, women, women & seascapes, and fashion photography. I think all of this comes from a love for design, a love for women, shadows, highlights and power. When a photograph or painting can hold a mood, expression or feeling within it's subject. I think it's so challenging to accomplish this and put this on paper or canvas, and this is why I'm drawn to portraiture, and also waves crashing. When a painting or photograph can add this expression to a room, my mission's accomplished. When you can remove this painting, and the mood of the room shifts, notice that. 

Who has complete, concrete thoughts? Or who has every aspect of their life, their appearance, their spaces, figured out to a T? No one that I can think of. And I think there is so much beauty in things that are incomplete or in progress. When the lines don't quite connect, or when you're unsure of what's going on. A smudge mark that represents a building, or a feature on a face, things that imply, but are unclear. Something that looks complete from far away, but as you get closer, you realize it is so abstracted and you can't quite make it out. A little bit of mystery and sometimes uneasiness, are two things that I am drawn to and I think that come out subconsciously in my work.

 
I think having questions about a piece of work and reconsidering almost each time you look at it is something I want people to do when seeing my work. A little bit of unknown, with a story to be told, but never quite is.  
 

Thanks for reading, and I hope this didn't make complete sense, and I hope you try to figure some out for yourself. 

does this feel incomplete?